This is it. This is everything she had been working towards, the ending Nameless foresaw over a century ago.
The white fox’s image crosses her mind.
She misses him. He’s been gone for so long now, done in by her own hands.
She still remembers how his blood-stained fur feels between her fingers and the way he looked up at the sky when the first drops of rain hit his face.
It was the only time she had seen him happy and it was the last time she ever saw him again.
Was he afraid when he knew the future he saw was just around the corner? When his emotions came barreling back into his life, did he cry out in anguish over his own fate?
She wants to.
The pain was beyond anything she had ever experienced, beyond words, beyond comprehension. Thousands of pinpointed stabbing sensations across her body. She was freezing and burning alive all at the same time. It was hard to breathe. She couldn’t breathe. She couldn’t even move, her limbs felt like they had been ripped ligament by ligament from her body and her lungs were filling with her own boiling blood, scorching her from the inside.
This is it. The more she says it, the more real it becomes. No energy left to cry, to scream, to even keep her eyes open. She was beyond the point of expressing her agony.
A hundred and fifty-two long years just to fade in silence alone and terrified, no one to hold her hand, to see her off, to keep her memory alive.
It’s fitting. The world never wanted her to make it as long as she had, so of course it would try to suffocate her in the night. Life has always been so cruel to her when all she wanted was to live the best she could.
In the end, she is giving hers up for another, for another that could protect an entire world’s population. It’s a fair trade: A sad lonely girl for millions of others.
Still, alone in her own blood, discarded, unable to even see what good her sacrifice is for… The remnants of a final tear falls from the corner of her closed eyes, leaving a trail through the dirt and dried blood on her face, stinging the cuts it sinks into on its slow descent.
In the middle of her suffering, there is a faint light. It’s familiar, part of a distant fond memory.
She’s ashamed to look at it, ashamed to admit she wants the light to envelope her and pull her out of this as desperately as she does. She knows it can’t.
In this brief calm, she opens her eyes.
His back is to her but she can’t find her voice to greet him.
All of a sudden she wishes she could fade unnoticed.
The white fox’s image crosses her mind.
She misses him. He’s been gone for so long now, done in by her own hands.
She still remembers how his blood-stained fur feels between her fingers and the way he looked up at the sky when the first drops of rain hit his face.
It was the only time she had seen him happy and it was the last time she ever saw him again.
Was he afraid when he knew the future he saw was just around the corner? When his emotions came barreling back into his life, did he cry out in anguish over his own fate?
She wants to.
The pain was beyond anything she had ever experienced, beyond words, beyond comprehension. Thousands of pinpointed stabbing sensations across her body. She was freezing and burning alive all at the same time. It was hard to breathe. She couldn’t breathe. She couldn’t even move, her limbs felt like they had been ripped ligament by ligament from her body and her lungs were filling with her own boiling blood, scorching her from the inside.
This is it. The more she says it, the more real it becomes. No energy left to cry, to scream, to even keep her eyes open. She was beyond the point of expressing her agony.
A hundred and fifty-two long years just to fade in silence alone and terrified, no one to hold her hand, to see her off, to keep her memory alive.
It’s fitting. The world never wanted her to make it as long as she had, so of course it would try to suffocate her in the night. Life has always been so cruel to her when all she wanted was to live the best she could.
In the end, she is giving hers up for another, for another that could protect an entire world’s population. It’s a fair trade: A sad lonely girl for millions of others.
Still, alone in her own blood, discarded, unable to even see what good her sacrifice is for… The remnants of a final tear falls from the corner of her closed eyes, leaving a trail through the dirt and dried blood on her face, stinging the cuts it sinks into on its slow descent.
In the middle of her suffering, there is a faint light. It’s familiar, part of a distant fond memory.
She’s ashamed to look at it, ashamed to admit she wants the light to envelope her and pull her out of this as desperately as she does. She knows it can’t.
In this brief calm, she opens her eyes.
His back is to her but she can’t find her voice to greet him.
All of a sudden she wishes she could fade unnoticed.